This summer I went to camp and thought that there was no way that this would happen to me. I would come back and be just as on fire for the Lord as ever. But that's not what happened, after the first week back... life hit and instead of turning to God I turned away. I've continued to run in the opposite direction of the Lord ever since. Yet, I know that God is better than everything that I thought that I could turn to.
Why do we still run away from God even when we know He is best for us?
Blame it on habit, or life... but I know that I have used every excuse in the book.
However, I am stuck in the endless and unfulfilling cycle that every reason that I don't want to get close to God are all the reasons that I need to.
Ex. I am worried about trusting God, because bad things will still happen in life and I'd rather not have hope in God and then have that hope crushed with more of... well... "life"
Solution: When you trust in God, even when bad things happen, ultimately God is my comforter, and I know that He has won the eternal fight even if a temporary one was lost.
I am still struggling with not trying to push God away, but today I was reminded of a very import thing....
Opening up and letting Him into the ugliness of day to day life, is the best and easiest step to start growing and strengthening a relationship... After all He knows it all anyways, and this is a way to let Him be a part of your life by choosing to share this part of you with Him.