It's easy to think, that I don't deserve faith. I've committed too many sins, and its been too long since Jesus and I have talked. I no longer walk with Him everyday when I am at school, and I feel guilty. Yet, I think it's only human to think that we don't deserve the best in life. However, through no right of my own and no action to justify it, I have been given a gift from God. We have ALL been given a gift from God. That gift is found in the verse that reminds me to have faith when I feel that I have lost it all.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
It's easy to think that with so much pain in the world and cruelty that comes into our lives, that God has forgotten. Just as we gain and lose friends in life, we gain and lose God's love as well? But He is always pursuing after us, and He is a constant. We may experience hardship but it is never His ultimate plan for our lives. My greatest hardships have only lead to my greatest growth. Sometimes I forget that though while I am in the middle of it. However, I have to remember that even though the race feels long and rough, God is the power that will carry me beyond where I perceive my limitations to be.
It's easy to push Him aside in fear that He has done the same to you. But we must take refuge in His truth in the Bible. To be honest, my Bible sat in my closet for months before I pulled it out today.
I was affected by the words of a coach honoring a student at my school tonight, and I was reminded as to how many obstacles I have overcome. Why now am I letting small things conquer me? No more. Tonight, I was reminded that I will never be satisfied with mediocre. Mediocre effort. Mediocre prayers. Mediocre goals. I was made for so much more than Mediocre. However, if I never reach to the ends of my limits to discover all that God has planned for me, I will never fully receive the grace and glories of His gifts that He has in store.
Only God knows the plans for my life, I can not worry about them or try and plan my own to go around them. What I can do is give my time to God. Today, my Bible is entered into my schedule and will remain there until.... hopefully & eventually... this will become habit and a daily relationship once more. And God will once again be my number one, my constant, and my companion. Until then, I will take it one good and bad day at a time. That's all we can do, give our all and put our faith in Him.
On a road to Faith and Discovery.
Sincerely, Sienna P.